two chapters, the Introduction and The
Krishna Conception, are taken from The
Search For Sri Krishna -- Reality The Beautiful, the first
book by His Divine Grace Srila Bhakti Rakshak Sridhar Dev-Goswami
Maharaj that was published in West. A mere 5000 copies of the First
Edition were printed in 1983 by the Guardian of Devotion Press in
San Jose, California, but as "the" book that introduced Srila
Sridhar Maharaj to the English-speaking western world, it has
been phenomenally successful, and has subsequently been reprinted
many times. It now enjoys universal acceptance, and has been translated
into German, Dutch, Italian, Hungarian, Swedish, Spanish, and Portuguese.
is searching for rasa, or pleasure. The
status of rasa is the highest. As persons we have our subjective existence,
but Rasa, pleasure, has His supersubjective existence. He is a person.
He is ahkila rasamrta murtih -- the Reservoir
of All Pleasure. He is Krishna. Rasa is Krishna. There cannot be rasa
in any other place but Krishna. He is the fountainhead of all different
types of rasa. So, by the nature of our constitution we have to search
the Brahma-Sutra it is said, "Inquire
after the Supreme Cause of this world. Search!" From where has everything
come? How is everything maintaining its existence? By whom? And
ultimately, where does everything enter after death? That is Brahma,
or Spirit, the most fundamental plane from where everything springs
up, remains, and ultimately enters. Where is Brahma? The Brahma-Sutra
advises us to inquire after the prime cause, the biggest, the all
accommodating. But Sri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu
replaced that, Srimad Bhagavatam replaced
that with krsnanusandhana -- the search
for Sri Krishna.
the search for spirit, is a dry thing. That is only the exercise
of your thinking faculty, a jugglery of reason. Leave that behind.
Begin the search for Sri Krishna and quench the thirst of your heart.
Rasa jijnasa, raso vai sah. The things
acquired by your reason won't satisfy you. Jnana,
or knowledge, cannot really quench your thirst, so instead of brahma-jijnasa
accept krsnanusandhana and begin the
search for Sri Krishna.
is Krishna? Our real want will be satisfied only by getting the
service of Krishna; not by anything else. We want to satisfy the
innermost demands of our hearts. We don't care to know where we
are or what is controlling everything, but we really want to quench
our thirst for rasa, for madhurya,
for sweetness. We must search neither for knowledge nor for the
controller of this world; we must search after rasa,
anandam, after beauty and charm.
Chaitanya Mahaprabhu and Srimad-Bhagavatam have taught us what to beg for, what
to pray for, what to want. They have taught us, "If you beg, beg for
Krishna, not for anything else." So the fate of the Vaishnavas, the
students of the Bhagavat and the followers
of Mahaprabhu, is sealed in the search for Sri Krishna. We want nothing
else but Krishna.
Vedas say srnvantu visve amrtasya putrah
-- "O, you sons of nectar, sons of the nectarine ocean sea: please
listen to me. You were born in nectar; you were born to taste nectar,
and you must not allow yourselves to be satisfied by anything but
nectar. So, however misguided you may be for the time being, awake!
Arise! Search for that nectar, that satisfaction." The Vedas tell
us, "Om!" Om means a big "Yes!" "What you are searching for -- that
is! Don't be disappointed." The Vedas say that the object of our
inner search exists. The common search of all your hearts is existing,
and your thirst will be quenched. By your constitution you are meant
for that and you deserve that, so don't be afraid; don't be cowed
down. It is already given in your being. And you can never be satisfied
with anything else.
prepare your self, after your long search, to receive that long
missing nectar in its full form and quality. Awake! Arise! Search
for your fortune and you cannot but have that. It is your birthright.
It is the wealth of your own soul. It cannot but be within you.
You have no other business, no other engagement but krsnanusandhana,
the Search for Sri Krishna -- Reality the Beautiful.
is not a lip transaction. Surrender means not only to surrender one's
possessions, but to realize that the possessions themselves are false.
I am not a master of anything. I am not even master of myself. Surrender
means to give everything to the Guru, and rid ourselves of the unholy
connection of so many possessions, so that they may not disturb us
by always suggesting, "You are my master," and in this way misleading
should think, "Everything belongs to the Lord and His delegation,
the Guru. I am not the master of anything." That sort of knowledge
we should imbibe, and that will be helpful to our real spiritual
progress. This is reality. We have to realize that fact. We want
the truth, and we want to free ourselves from false notions. So,
proper diksa, spiritual initiation,
imparts the divine knowledge that nothing belongs to us; not only
that, but everything belongs to God, including ourselves. That is
the conception of diksa: "I belong
to Him; everything belongs to Him. I am His servant, and these are
the objects of His service."
is reality, and we are suffering under nonreality in an imaginary
world. We are living in a fool's paradise. We should do away with
the fool's paradise and try to enter into real paradise. When we have
a peep into the characteristic of the absolute environment of reality,
and even a little regard for the truth, we can no longer relish the
paraphernalia of this world as we did previously. Because we have
had a real taste of the higher truth, we will have no charm for this
material world. We will no longer feel encouragement to meet with
the duties that are relating to this world of enjoyment. We will be
know that the connection with the present enjoying mood brings a
painful reaction. We can realize that, but we cannot leave it behind.
We cannot cut off the connection completely in the stage of sadhana,
spiritual practice. Still, we have no other alternative. Our affinity
for the positive truth should be increased more and more and gradually
our affinity for our paraphernalia and obligations will all disappear.
Although repeatedly we may not be successful, still we will be unable
to give up the idea. We will attempt again and again to make progress
towards the truth, and when we are unsuccessful, our heart will
ache to think that we are repeatedly being defeated by the enemies
who are all around us.
the fire of Krishna consciousness is there, and that fire is not
to be quenched. It is a spark of eternal truth. So, the fire will
continue, and the day will come when the enemies that are surrounding
us will have to retire once and for all. One day we will find that
Krishna has gradually captured our whole heart, and the others have
retired forever; they are no longer present to trouble us in our
mental circle. We will find that those unwanted things were like
mushrooms: they came out from our mental soil, and now they have
all gone and died. They have all gone away, and Krishna alone is
in the heart. At that time, the heart is only full of Krishna, full
of the Krishna conception.
Captures The Heart
Bhakti Siddhanta Saraswati Prabhupad
once instructed a disciple at the time of initiation into the Hare
Krishna mantra that Krishna should be allowed to land in our hearts,
just as an army is landed by the navy. An army is carried by a ship,
and when they have landed, the fight begins, and they capture the
country, just as Julius Caesar said, "Veni vidi
vici -- I came, I saw, I conquered." So, we have to allow Krishna
to land in our hearts. Then the fight will begin.
is the proposal of Krishna consciousness, and what is the proposal
of so many other conceptions? They are all giving us their assurances
from time immemorial, saying, "I shall give you this, I shall give
you that," but the Krishna conception will enter and say, "My claim
is this: the whole thing is Mine, and you are all trespassers!"
The fight will begin; the unwanted things are sure to withdraw,
and Krishna consciousness will capture the whole heart. This is
the process. Krishna consciousness has only to land within our hearts.
Somehow or other, from a pure devotee, a bit of real Krishna consciousness
should enter through our ears into our hearts, and Krishna will
supply whatever is required. One who has imbibed even a slight regard
for Krishna consciousness is assured of success in spiritual life,
today or tomorrow.
may have erected high walls on all sides to protect ourselves so
that Krishna consciousness may not enter, but Krishna is a thief
-- and a thief requires no invitation. No preparation is necessary
for His welcome. He will enter for His own interest, and that is
our consolation. Our solace is that Krishna is a thief. Maya has
erected her high walls on all sides, but nothing is sufficient to
stop Krishna consciousness. Krishna is a thief, and stealthily He
will enter one day.
For The Hopeless
devotee may become hopeless, thinking, "The enemy is within my own
house; my own kinsmen are my enemies. I am hopeless." We may become
disappointed, but Krishna consciousness will not leave us in any way.
Krishna will persevere, and in due course of time, He will conquer.
And other things, no matter how closely related they may be in private
and well-protected rooms in our hearts, will have to go. They must
take leave from every corner of our hearts. Krishna will conquer.
Krishna will capture the whole thing.
unwanted lusty desires of our hearts are foreign things. They are
only mushrooms. Like mushrooms, they come out; they have no permanent
stability or root. They are not rooted to the soil. We may think
that what we have stored in our hearts is very near and dear, and
that is already mixed with us as a part of our existence, but when
Krishna consciousness enters, they will all float like mushrooms.
all, they are mushrooms; they have no footing, no connection with
the soil. They are only floating. All material interests are only
floating on the surface. They are not deeply rooted within and without
the whole of our existence. Only Krishna consciousness has its existence
everywhere, within all parts of our existence. So, the mushrooms
will have to vanish one day. This is confirmed in the Srimad
Krishna enters the heart through the ear, He captures the lotus of
the heart and then gradually makes all the dirt in the heart disappear.
Just as when the autumn season comes, all the water everywhere becomes
pure, so also, when Krishna enters our hearts, all the impurities
within will gradually vanish, and only Krishna will remain forever.
pravistah karna-randhrena svanam bhava-saroruham
dhunoti samalam krsnah salilasya yatha sarat
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