When Uddhava went to Vrndavan he was so 
          charmed by seeing the Gopis' love, their devotion, their attraction, 
          and their affection for Krishna, that he said, "For life after 
          life, I only desire one thing: I want to become a speck of dust in Vrndavan. 
          Not only that, I want to be one of those who are worthy of receiving 
          that dust -- the plants and creepers of Vrndavan -- and live here for 
          all eternity. Here in the land of Vrndavan, Krishna has performed His 
          Pastimes, and His companions, the Gopis, also roam around here. If I 
          can be born as a small creeper so that I may get the dust of their lotus 
          feet on my head, that will be my highest fortune." 
        Such are the glories of Krishna, and the 
          intense feeling of separation from Him -- Vipralambha. Mahaprabhu has 
          shown us the highest limit of that Vipralambha in Sri Nilachala-Dham.
        Sri Gadadhar Pandit, who kept Mahaprabhu 
          in the depths of his heart, and performed the supreme seva, also lived 
          there. Mahaprabhu took sannyasa and went to Jagannath Puri, and by His 
          desire Lord Gopinath became manifest. When you go to Puri you will all 
          see Lord Gopinath there. Both the feelings of Mahaprabhu and the feelings 
          of Gadadhar Pandit were described in a beautiful sloka by our Srila 
          Guru Maharaj. 
        nilambhodhi-tate sada sva-viraha-ksepanvitam bandhavam
          srimad-bhagavati katha madiraya sanjivayan bhati yah 
          srimad-bhagavatam sada sva-nayanasru payanaih pujayan 
          gosvami-prabaro gadadhara-vibhur-bhuyat mad-eka-gatih 
        The lotus feet of Gadadhar Pandit are 
          our sole treasure. He resided by the ocean of Vipralambha which was 
          manifest by his life and soul, Lord Gauranga, who took everything from 
          him. 
         
          
             
             
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                    | Sri Sri Gaura Gadadhar, 
                        worshipped since the time of Mahaprabhu at the Sri Sri 
                        Gaura Gadadhar Mandir in Champahati, Sri Nabadwip Dham. 'The 
                        lotus feet of this Gadadhar Pandit are our ultimate destination. 
                        Our worshipable Deities are Gaura-Gadadhar, and the supreme 
                        demonstration of their Vipralambha was seen in Nilachala-Dham.' |  | 
             
          
         
        Mahaprabhu was suffering separation from 
          Krishna, and His feelings of separation were so intense, that sometimes 
          His body became elongated, sometimes He retracted His limbs like a tortoise, 
          and sometimes His joints became separated. 
        So Mahaprabhu, Sri Krishna Himself, suffered 
          intense separation from Krishna, and He was enlivened by hearing topics 
          about Lord Krishna from Gadadhar Pandit. When a person is in intense 
          grief, what does he do? He becomes blinded by his grief, and he cannot 
          decide how he will find some peace, so he drinks alcohol. Sri Gadadhar 
          Pandit provided such intoxication for Mahaprabhu by enlivening Him with 
          the intoxicating topics of Srimad-Bhagavatam. This is how he served 
          the Lord of his heart.
        And how were Gadadhar Pandit's own feelings 
          of separation? He is seeing that his beloved Lord is in front of him, 
          and his Lord is suffering so intensely that He is becoming unconscious 
          now and then. All the eight symptoms of separation can be seen in His 
          body, such as perspiring, trembling, tears, becoming stunned, changing 
          of bodily colour, etc., but there is nothing he can do about it. Lamenting 
          this, continuous floods of tears flowed from his eyes.
        Whenever Gadadhar Pandit read the Bhagavatam, 
          he became so mad with feelings of separation from Krishna that his tears 
          would wash away the letters on the page. The proof of this is, when 
          Srinivasa Acharyya came to him to study Srimad-Bhagavatam, Gadadhar 
          Pandit told him,
          
          "My dear son, when I was reading Bhagavatam to Mahaprabhu, all 
          the letters in my book were washed away, therefore I cannot now read 
          to you from this book. Please find a book somewhere. Mahaprabhu instructed 
          me in my dream, saying you were coming. But you need to have a book. 
          I have memorised everything, but you need a book also." Gadadhar 
          Pandit thus worshipped the Bhagavatam with his tears. Is it necessary 
          to have any ingredients to worship? One's own tears are the best ingredients.
        The lotus feet of this Gadadhar Pandit 
          are our ultimate destination. Our worshipable Deities are Gaura-Gadadhar, 
          and the supreme demonstration of their Vipralambha was seen in Nilachala-Dham.